It's been too long...

It's been to long since I have written in my blog. I feel pretty guilty, I have missed this old thing. To much has happened for me to post about, so let's just get on with life and with my post. I just traveled from salt lake today from my sister in-laws baby shower. I am so excited for my first nephew, Baby Hudson. He is going to be so spoiled and loved. Gotta love em boys!

I had to drive my aunts big escalade back, since she was traveling to haiti with the group Ordinary Hero, to go serve and help villages. Okay when you are used to driving a 4 door sedan and suddenly drive a beast, you feel like every time you pass a car your going to crush it.. Now if you know me, you'll know that I would be pretty hilarius to watch driving my semi's with the beast.

Take a moment; close your eyes, sit back and imagine me driving at 9 am with my hands in full primanitis mode...(If you don't know what that is, I'm sorry) now imagine me driving by a semi, going eeepp but in a quite high pitched nervous tone, with my body very stiff. Then when I finally pass those monsters on a two lane high way, I relax.. Awhh. Although it did make me feel pretty powerful and awesome. It still was quite the interesting drive until I got out of the construction area.. (didn't realize you probably need to keep your eyes open to read the post.) My goal while I was on my drive home, was to stop in at a random church to go to sacrament meeting... Welp, I stopped in provo, forgot about daylight savings time and was an hour early.. So I stopped in cedar city at 1 on the dot, and there were no meetings going... Have I missed something.. Any way, hope the big man gives me props and blessings for at least trying. On top of that, I figured I would go to the fireside. They always start at 7pm unless other wise specified. So, I go and it started at 6pm.. E for effort today. Ramballing over.. I have been thinking a lot lately about my life and where I am at and what changes have been made and what changes are going to happen. A lot of deep thought. I guess a 3 hour drive will do that to ya. I am completely happy in my life! Honestly, I have never been in such a good place in my life. Yes, my life is not perfect but it is absolutely wonderful! It's interesting all my friends are getting married or having kids, and people keep asking how I am and if I am dating anyone serious or the best one, "don't worry you will find your guy" I wish I could just shake them and say "I'm So Happy with my life and am not sad or mad that I don't have my man, I'm beyond happy for my friends!" :) I'm not saying that I am bitter about marriage or don't want to get married. It's something that I for sure want and desire, but I want it at the right time. I'm not just going to get married to be the social norm of Utah.. haha But seriously.

I'm not one of those girls going to school to find my man. I'm actually going to school to get an education. Because I want one, and if my sweetheart comes along tomorrow in the grocery store of course I will be more than happy. It's for sure one of my greatest desires, I want to be a mom and a wife. I do. But I'm not one of those people that waits for events to define my happiness. Life is constantly changing, and we get to pick our attitude when trials are thrown at us.

When something begins, you generally have no idea how it’s going to end. The house you’re going to sell becomes your home, the roommates you were forced to take in become your family and the date that you were determined not to go on, becomes the love of your life. We spend our whole lives worrying about the future, planning for the future, trying to predict the future, as if figuring it out will somehow cushion the blow. But the future is always changing. The future is the home of our deepest fears and wildest hopes. But one thing is certain when it finally reveals itself. The future is never the way we imagined it. Change is constant. How we experience change, That's up to us. It can feel like death or it can feel like a second chance at life. If we open our fingers, loosen our grips, and go with it... It can feel like pure adrenaline. Like at any moment we can have another chance at life.... Like at any moment, we can start all over again. I have plans for my future, whether It's for this weekend or 50 years from now when my cute old and wrinkly husband and I are all retired (hopefully) and we just spoil our grandkids and enjoy driving jazzy's with mickey mouse hats on in Disneyland with them, but hopefully we wont need jazzys until age 97, I plan on being the oldest person running races. ;) What ever my future holds, it holds.. But I'm not going to wait for tragedies and try to cushion the blows of it, I'm going to live everyday like it is my last and with those I love. At the end of the day that truly is what is most important.

P.S. For 21 days of November- What I'm grateful for. I'm grateful for The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. It is the most important thing to me in my life. I will shout it to the roof tops. I am who I am today because of this amazing gospel. I have a true testimony of it and will never deny that. I love talking about it and I love hearing others gratitude for it and their knowledge if it. This gospel doesn't make things easy in life, it makes everything absolutely possible. I'm not ashamed to be Mormon.

Wow, it has been quite the year.


I have made some of the best of friends i could of ever asked for. They have taught me so much about being open and honest and talking about things instead of brushing them aside. One friend in particular has taught me to "show love" I have always had a hard time expressing that unless others would show it first. But she has taught me, that its okay to show that. I know that may sound weird. But that is something that has been hard for me. I have always waited for others to tell me something, or to do something. because i have been terrified to show my true feelings. even though i may love another person, i tend to run away in a way. :)








I am truly enjoying my life. I am happy with where i am, and if anything changes i will take it from there. I think it is so important to enjoy life and live in each moment. Because so many people say " i will be HAPPY when i graduate, i will be happy when i get married, i will be happy when i have a family, i will be happy when i get a different car or hair cut etc..." it's about being happy now. Enjoying the journey now. Before you know it, it will be over.



It's about looking around you and taking in the colors of the leaves the hussle n bussle of cars, an old couple taking a walk, the children playing. if we don't find happiness now and keep waiting for it, we will never be happy.





I know that something i am blessed with is the Gift of Optimism, i have always looked for the good in everything my whole life, its just who i am. I know the lord blessed me with that because of everything i have been through. But every mistake, every trial, every hardship has made me the person i have always wanted to be. I am so grateful for my trials, they have made me stronger and made me enjoy and love the smallest and most joyful of moments.

I am a student at DSC, living away from home, Working 2 jobs and going to school for Physical Therapy/communications, I am dating and figuring things out, and loving every moment of it. I am a teacher in relief society and try to help others as much as i can. I have the best of friends and am so unbelievably grateful for my life.

... My life is not by any means perfect. There are days when i doubt and question. But i have learned to turn it over to the lord and trust in him and be patient with him. I choose to see the goodness each moment has to offer.



This is the moment in our lives when we can live and love, or be still and silent. Don't let this wonderful life pass you by. This is a gift and test the lord has blessed you with. Now take it and run!

Sister Lawson

Oh boy, One of my dear friends summer lawson is going on a mission. She is going to El Salvador, San Salvador east mission!! I am so proud of her, she has been an amazing influence in my life.




She will be back december of 2012! I Am going to miss her so much, but i know she is going to change so many lives and truly make a difference. I Lived with her for like 9 months, but i have known her for about two years. She and i had so much fun together, we always had our own weird adventures... especially if the boys were involved.. If you know me, you know what boys i am talking about; Austin, Tanner and Hank..


Australia, Hankiss, Sissy wa wa, Ghe Fa, and Speegot.... Don't ask. :)






Whether we were paint balling and trying to get summer, playing COD, going to swig, to enterprise to shoot guns... or get pies.. going to the temple or rio..:) Going on our fun little shopping trips, going to erda to see her fam... Pushing involuntarily into the pool. he he Piling on her big bed to watch a movie with all the boys. Waiting for her to get home... to see which scarf will look best... (inside joke) ha ha We always had so much fun.









I know that sum is going to be a great missionary, she has always been a good example to me, in more ways than one. I know how much she loves this gospel and i have seen her testimony grow right in front of me. No matter what she was going through, she always new where to turn. :) She is a sister to me, She is one of the few i have truly opened up too. She always made it easy to be myself. I know that when she gets to El Salvador, The people are going to fall in love with her. She is a daughter of a king. I know the lord is proud of her and everything she has done in her life. Its weird i am kind of speechless on what to say. There are no words to describe the how proud i am of her.




Sum; i love you! and i plan on being the first person to send you a package... i already have it ready! :) i just need to send it... Lets just say, it has a little of the boys and me in it! To keep you laughing when things get hard. :)

Good luck hun! I promise i will keep in touch.. and i promise i will tell you when the RED SOX are beating the YANKEES! ha ha Love you!





Don't worry, when all is said and done.. We love each other.. ;)

It's a Wonderful Life...

It's interesting to me, as i have grown up and lived on my own.. The choices i make and the person i have become. I am so grateful that my mom and dad were amazing examples to me growing up. I am grateful that they attended church regularly and talked to us about our own testimonies and serving others etc..




As i have been living on my own, I have come to realize that i have my own testimony now, and that i love going to church and reading my scriptures.. Its funny, the other day after class all i could think about was.. " i cant wait till i can go to bed tonight, so i can read my scriptures!" Seriously though, thats what i was thinking.
To me now, the Scriptures aren't just something to read, they are so much more and every time i truly read them i feel the spirit and a sense of peace.

I love my parents and i hope they both know how much they have influenced me to become the person i have wanted to become. I know we all have our ups and downs with our parents, but make sure you don't take them for granted. They do the best they can, and they love you more than you will ever know. I Can only hope that when i am a mother and a wife, that i may be a smidge like my mother. I hope that i may teach my own children the same principles and commandments my mom taught me. I also hope that i can be a good example and that i can be close with my children.





My mom is one of a kind.. She is a lot like me, But it just cracks me up. Because she will do things, and i am always like "mom... your weird" She is so loving and always serves others before she thinks about her self... that is if she even thinks about herself. She always makes sure all of us kids are ok, and she will check in with us... saying.. " call your mother, i haven't talked to you in 5 days!" ha ha i love it. What i love though, is when i come into my mom and dads room at night and my mom is kneeling and saying her prayers, it happens more often than not. I can't wait till the day when my kids say " mom... your weird" ha.






I Love my dad, He is one of the most amazing men in my life. I look to him for answers and for guidance.. He is like a guardian angel to me. He has such a love for the gospel and for sharing it. He is definitely right up there with my mom on the weird scale. :) My dad has always made sure that my siblings and i have gotten every single thing we need, he has never failed our family on providing for us, and taking care of us... plus he makes the best tacos!!



Family is number one in life.. Don't ever let anything destroy it, and if it is breaking... fight with all your will and might to hold it together.


I am grateful for my family, especially my parents and all they do for me. I Have a true testimony of the gospel and i know with all my heart the truth of it. If there is anything i love more, its talking about the gospel. I know i am not perfect and i have made mistakes. But i wouldn't change anything in my life.. I am who i am today for each mistake i have made.. I am the megan i have always wanted to become.
Though this journey isn't easy, it is so worth it.


I am so excited for the day when i will be able to get married in the temple, and start my own family.

Looking Forward

Wow.. i have so much ahead of me, and i am so excited for every little bit of it. :) I will be headed back down to good ol St george this may for school! I am so excited! I have so many dear friends there and i just love the sun!! Sad part is sum wont be there. But she will be doing greater things. :)
I am deciding which career path i want to go in to.. Its so difficult. Because i have such a wide range of Passion for so many different things ranging from Fashion- Psychology- Culinary- Nursing- Business. I have finally narrowed it down too.. drum roll......

Business or Nursing..














I know the nursing thing is kind of new.. but my whole life i have always wanted to get the best education i could get. So that i could go over to different 3rd world countries and help them.. weather its build school, teach english, be a doctor down there.. I have such a passion for helping people. So if i do go into say business i will still take that education and use it to create foundations to help people across the ocean. :)

Any direction i go, I know i am going to conquer what i set my mind too!

Recently i Just sold my Cadillac Deville.. :).. My boat, And bought an Infiniti I30. i am really excited about my new car and all of the memories that will be made in it. But also a little sad leaving my good ol Cadi. with all of those memories with the boys of 4E and paint balling it, and driving with all of my friends to float down the river packed in my car, and night time drives to the burrito place, and Singing to Journey with Sum... in the church parking lot! :) many memories passed and to come! :)


I surely hope I will be doing the 60 mile (3DayWalk) for breast cancer in November! Then next year, The St. George Marathon!!
Live Your Life- Certainly has new meaning.. LIVE.. live in the moment, live in everything you do.. Live, Don't just Exist in this life. It goes by so fast.. Live With no regrets.. and Always love unconditionally!







I am so excited for this year and everything that is going to happen! I can not wait to make new friends and become closer with the ones i have, try new sports, be Really involved with school, and just live it up. With everything I have been through.. I definitely am taking life by the reigns and charging through. I am going to live every moment and enjoy every memory... while getting some studying in as well!

So lately in my life i have realized who is important and who matters. I have grown so much in the past several months and i have changed so much. It is so interesting to me how things change in life.. Different friends, people you grow together with and grow apart with, finding yourself, understanding what matters and who to trust, and just finding those true friends that bring me up and always are there for me!



I am so grateful for the people in my life who have changed my life for the better, no matter how big or small. i am so grateful for them! They are wonderful examples to me and i am so blessed to have them in my life! There are so many.. but just to name a few.. Stacie- she is the most loving girl, she really knows how to listen and be there for a friend. Summer- She is truthfully a sister to me, i don't know where i would be with out her today. Colleen- Now, i have known her for about 10 years and she never leaves a girl behind, she is so genuine! Scotti- He is just a brother to me, i just love him, He has always been there for me. Kenzie- she and i met in 9th grade on our basketball team, but we had been going to the same schools since 6th grade. She is my very best friend. i don't know where i would be in my life with out her today. She definitely is one of the few who know me very well. Dallin- oh boy, he is funny, i can always talk to him about everything. Jenni- well i have known her my whole life.. she is my cousin.. but also such an amazing friend, and i look up to her so much.



My nick names for each of them! :) and no questions asked to why. :)

Stacie AKA Izzy
Summer AKA Sissy wa wa
Colleen AKA Colleeniepoo
Scotti AKA Pascotti
Kenzie AKA Sugar Nips- have no idea why. :)
Dallin AKA Peter Pan
Jenni AKA jenni my LOVER


Any way that is only a FEW of the people that popped up in my mind.. I am so blessed to have wonderful friends like them!

Sissy wa wa

So i thought i would write a little post about this amazing person i know..

Summer Jo Lawson :)



I hope all of you out there get to meet yourself a summer lawson.. I don't even know if she knows how much she means to me.. She has definitely been with me through a lot of stuff. She is what i call a true friend! i am not saying we have the perfect friendship, but it comes pretty close. we both have had our ups and downs and we both are honest and loving with each other. She is a remarkable soul... I was able to go to good ol' Erda with her and spend a couple days with her and the family! I love them, and i hope i will be able to spend more time with them. We went to gymnastics at the U and it was breast cancer awareness, so we were these sweet hats... its because of her that i am a U fan... ha ha Her family is just as amazing as her!!



i was talking with my mom the other day about who i want in my line at my wedding... and i thought i want summer lawson as one of my brides maids! she truly is a sister to me!




I am living up north right now, it puts a little frown on my face when i know i cant be living with her and going next door to her room or knocking on the wall morse code... or the photo lab, or go to orange peel, getting her caffeine fix, big glasses extravaganza, cleaning her car often, coloring profusely funny things, cafe rio, play COD, crying together on the bathroom floor, the movie bowl; we never finished, playing with our boys, stay up and talking, watching her procrastinate but then actually make the project amazing, floating down the virgin river, trips to enterprise, watching her do her hair and makeup and when she does that funny teasing thing to her hair! ha! and many many more things! :)






summer Jo lawson- you better know that i miss you and even though we don't talk often enough. know your the best and wether we are 20 or 83 we better be forever friends!!









so many pictures to choose from our adventures... but only could pick a few... :)