It's been too long...

It's been to long since I have written in my blog. I feel pretty guilty, I have missed this old thing. To much has happened for me to post about, so let's just get on with life and with my post. I just traveled from salt lake today from my sister in-laws baby shower. I am so excited for my first nephew, Baby Hudson. He is going to be so spoiled and loved. Gotta love em boys!

I had to drive my aunts big escalade back, since she was traveling to haiti with the group Ordinary Hero, to go serve and help villages. Okay when you are used to driving a 4 door sedan and suddenly drive a beast, you feel like every time you pass a car your going to crush it.. Now if you know me, you'll know that I would be pretty hilarius to watch driving my semi's with the beast.

Take a moment; close your eyes, sit back and imagine me driving at 9 am with my hands in full primanitis mode...(If you don't know what that is, I'm sorry) now imagine me driving by a semi, going eeepp but in a quite high pitched nervous tone, with my body very stiff. Then when I finally pass those monsters on a two lane high way, I relax.. Awhh. Although it did make me feel pretty powerful and awesome. It still was quite the interesting drive until I got out of the construction area.. (didn't realize you probably need to keep your eyes open to read the post.) My goal while I was on my drive home, was to stop in at a random church to go to sacrament meeting... Welp, I stopped in provo, forgot about daylight savings time and was an hour early.. So I stopped in cedar city at 1 on the dot, and there were no meetings going... Have I missed something.. Any way, hope the big man gives me props and blessings for at least trying. On top of that, I figured I would go to the fireside. They always start at 7pm unless other wise specified. So, I go and it started at 6pm.. E for effort today. Ramballing over.. I have been thinking a lot lately about my life and where I am at and what changes have been made and what changes are going to happen. A lot of deep thought. I guess a 3 hour drive will do that to ya. I am completely happy in my life! Honestly, I have never been in such a good place in my life. Yes, my life is not perfect but it is absolutely wonderful! It's interesting all my friends are getting married or having kids, and people keep asking how I am and if I am dating anyone serious or the best one, "don't worry you will find your guy" I wish I could just shake them and say "I'm So Happy with my life and am not sad or mad that I don't have my man, I'm beyond happy for my friends!" :) I'm not saying that I am bitter about marriage or don't want to get married. It's something that I for sure want and desire, but I want it at the right time. I'm not just going to get married to be the social norm of Utah.. haha But seriously.

I'm not one of those girls going to school to find my man. I'm actually going to school to get an education. Because I want one, and if my sweetheart comes along tomorrow in the grocery store of course I will be more than happy. It's for sure one of my greatest desires, I want to be a mom and a wife. I do. But I'm not one of those people that waits for events to define my happiness. Life is constantly changing, and we get to pick our attitude when trials are thrown at us.

When something begins, you generally have no idea how it’s going to end. The house you’re going to sell becomes your home, the roommates you were forced to take in become your family and the date that you were determined not to go on, becomes the love of your life. We spend our whole lives worrying about the future, planning for the future, trying to predict the future, as if figuring it out will somehow cushion the blow. But the future is always changing. The future is the home of our deepest fears and wildest hopes. But one thing is certain when it finally reveals itself. The future is never the way we imagined it. Change is constant. How we experience change, That's up to us. It can feel like death or it can feel like a second chance at life. If we open our fingers, loosen our grips, and go with it... It can feel like pure adrenaline. Like at any moment we can have another chance at life.... Like at any moment, we can start all over again. I have plans for my future, whether It's for this weekend or 50 years from now when my cute old and wrinkly husband and I are all retired (hopefully) and we just spoil our grandkids and enjoy driving jazzy's with mickey mouse hats on in Disneyland with them, but hopefully we wont need jazzys until age 97, I plan on being the oldest person running races. ;) What ever my future holds, it holds.. But I'm not going to wait for tragedies and try to cushion the blows of it, I'm going to live everyday like it is my last and with those I love. At the end of the day that truly is what is most important.

P.S. For 21 days of November- What I'm grateful for. I'm grateful for The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. It is the most important thing to me in my life. I will shout it to the roof tops. I am who I am today because of this amazing gospel. I have a true testimony of it and will never deny that. I love talking about it and I love hearing others gratitude for it and their knowledge if it. This gospel doesn't make things easy in life, it makes everything absolutely possible. I'm not ashamed to be Mormon.