I look back at everything I have accomplished and over come these past couple years. I have had a lot of up and downs. My 10th grade year I started at lone peak high school, I went for about 5 months then I left. I had been just so low on energy and felt achie all the time, I moved to hurricane utah for the rest of my 10th grade year. I attended national acadamy of fitness; I ran 2 miles every morning and pretty much when I wasn't doing school I was working out, I came back home 35 lbs lighter, and felt great. Little did I know it wasn't the answer to my problems, yes it helped me so much, and taught me so many things that I will never forget.
Later that year my family and I moved to minnesota. That was a very hard transition for me, but I started adjusting well and made some good friends. My body and everything just wasn't right, the best way to discribe it is, it felt like my body was slowly shutting down. I couldn't figure out what was going on. so I finally was taken out of my school and did online classes, because I was just so sick. I got to the point where doctors said there's nothing wrong with you, it's all in your head. That was so frustrating, because I felt like maybe it really was in my head. I prayed and hoped that it would just go away or that maybe I could find that one doctor who would be willing to go the distance and test me for everything, and to really help me... not just see me as another patient.
My aunt who lives in texas told me about a doctor who had really helped her and her kids with there health problems. I didn't really think of it, I just thought I would have to fly to texas and waste my time for another test result that said I was fine. But then I started passing out randomly and had memory loss of days before, it got so hard. I was sick of being sick! I just felt like I needed a miracle. So my mom and dad talked with my aunt and they sent me to texas, I was there for almost 3 months. I met with so many doctors and the doctor that my aunt reffered me too found out what was wrong with me...
I was Diagnosed with Lymes Disease; Stage 3 as well as Adrenal Fatigue, Hypothryoid, Chronic Fatigue, Bobisha and some others that are hard to spell. :) I started immediatly on a lot of meds and started treatment for my Lymes Disease. I was up to about 36 pills a day. It was insane and not fun at all. The thing was I had to get even worse before I could get better with this treatment. I was able to move back home and just had to go to texas ever so often for meds.
After moving back from texas back to minnesota, my mom told me we were moving back to utah! We moved back into my same ward, just so I was able to finish my senior year at lone peak. I was only able to go to maybe 1 or 2 classes and do the rest home hospital because I still wasnt 100%. I dont think I was even 50%, I know I will probably never be 100% but knowing that I can get out of bed and not feel so weak now and be able to push myself to go and do things with my friends is a blessing.
I finally finished my treatment and learned what meds I couldnt go with out. I am proud to say I am only taking 12 pills a day and I am in REMISSION!!! With all of that going on I gianed a lot of weight. Some because of the meds I was on, also not really being able to be that active, because I was so weak. It was so hard.. because i am so active, and love working out. I started this journey of losing weight april 2009; I have not only lost a lot of weight but I have let go of a lot of things and moved forward and learned to show my emotions in front of others and to open up more to people. It has been such an emotional roller coaster, losing weight isn't just the pounds... There's baggage that comes with losing that weight and letting things go. 
I recently volunteered at the Iron Man as a finish line catcher and saw my brother compete in a triathalon as well... It was emotional for me to see these people cross the finish line. They have had a goal and have been training for that goal, and when they cross the finish line, they have said its a release, it's like a weight has been lifted off. I am doing the Saint george marathon in october and the half marathon in july. For me I know I am going to be so emotional not just because, yes I am completing a marathon. But because of everything I have gone through and overcome. It is like crossing over to a new chapter and leaving everything behind on those miles I will run. Crossing that finish line... Is the moment I can not wait for!!
I have lost 107 pounds!! I used to be ashamed to say that out loud to people, But NO!!! It's an amazing accomplishment, and I am proud to say how far I have come.
100 lbs heavier
100 lbs lighter!!!
Adding to The post... Date June 2011
I came out of remission in November of 2010, but i made up my mind. that i was not going to let this run my life.. I have to much i want to do and be in my life.
I went through a lot of different meds and healed myself and studied more about lymes disease.
I am in remission again. :) and i am living life. i am able to keep running and working out. i feel like my old self! i love it! It is so important to me, to be able to run. Its something that just makes me feel invincible! I am not on any meds for my lymes disease... Which is huge! i just have to make sure i take care of myself and not push myself so much... which is hard.. i like going on adventures and reaching the extremes. :)
So here is to The present and the future. I am strong and I can conquer anything!! I am so thankful to have the strength that i have.. :)
