To cry or not to cry- ramble

The worst question to ask someone who has been crying... "Are you okay...?"

Of course I'm not okay crazy.

Oh no your right I'm totally great! My face is red and my make up is gone, because when I went in to the hall I actually tried to hold my breath to break a world record and then when I broke that world record I started crying with tears of joy. Better luck next time aye professor

Why! Why would some one say "are you okay?" when your obviously not. Can't they just come give you a hug or say hey here is an awesomely yummy vanilla cupcake or smoothie to make you feel better. Come on. I just got done crying. And now you brought on the tears again... The tears that if you say 3 little words they come rushing back... Really what is with it?!

Now don't get me wrong, I think anyone who is crying just needs a hug or the totally opposite. "Like if you touch me, you die!"

Don't know what's with those people... Killing is bad.

But I guess no one ever knows what to do. I mean you don't want some poor unsuspecting person to come give you a hug and then you punch their lights out, cause they totally invaded your space. On the other hand you don't want someone saying "Are you okay?" If you don't want to give them your whole life story and all of the things leading up to this momentous break down in the hall of FCS building on campus... What am I a woman? Yap, I am. At least I'm not an ugly cryer.

But there are those moments when that one person you need comes through, whether its that cute guy you like or a dear friend or even your darn professor. Just showing they care. Means the world.

Here is to the people who still care about others. We live in such a technological world that no one actually sees others any more. They don't actual look at the person they are speaking too.

What happened to gentlemen?
- guys who open your door or actually tell you that you are beautiful, guys who treat you like the amazing woman you are, guys who love you for your imperfections.

What happened to ladies?
Girls who respect themselves, girls who give the good guys a chance, and actually wear things that leave some mystery to the eye. Who actually treat guys good and not like their ex who threw paint on their car. (Word to the wise, not all guys are bad. There are some pretty great ones out their... I hope. At least mine better be)

What happened to good ol conversations, that last all night?
- you know the ones that start with the good bye date then linger to sitting on the steps then ends on the couch and finally ends laying on your stomach on the floor laughing and telling stories till the sun is rising.

What happened to a perfectly nice stranger letting you in, when there is lots of traffic?
- you know the nice drivers, the ones who don't live in utah most of the time, who aren't so focused on there lives that they actually see a cute, single, nice funny girl wanting to get in and they wave their nice little hand to welcome me to the road! Gee thanks stranger.


What happened to people. People are crazy.


Better head to bed. Hopefully this makes some type of sense, glad I got this off my mind...

Rambling ended.

Nothing better than a little bit of free time

The three most scrumptious things in my life at this exact moment while sitting on the floor in my family room are Jimmy Johns, my Runners World magazine and How I Met your Mother.

Now if you haven't ever had Jimmy Johns... Go! Go! It is yummy. I don't even need to give you a reason.

And if you haven't ever seen How I Met your Mother; stop what you are doing at this moment and go to your nearest I phone, I pad, I Mac or TV and watch it! Give yourself at least three episodes before making an opinion.. Oh how it is absolutely Legendary! Haha

Alright my Runners magazine is more my guilty pleasure. I just love all the insights of how to be better and new gear etc..

Yup, that is what consumes my heart and mind at this moment. Well for the next hour or so while Kenzie and I watch it. But still it is awesomely great!

Small an Simple but I'm grateful for it.

Nothing Better Than Being Fit

I went and volunteered at the Turkey Triathlon today in Saint George. I loved it! I guess I am one of those weird people who like working at the races and helping organize them. It's just such a great feeling to see each person cross the finish line. Thinking of how hard they worked and what they have accomplished. Thinking to myself  "I can't wait to do that." I just recently worked with my sister in-laws family in putting together the first Dixie Mud Run, and it was a blast. I can't wait to have even more responsibility with it next year.

 I have done 5k's and 10k's and run as much as I can. I haven't ever been able to do a half marathon/ Tri etc. I had some health issues and injured my back and have been working so hard on healing it and getting back in shape. I can't wait to do the STG Tri next year in may. My family has been doing it for the past few years and I can't wait to do it! There really is nothing better than being fit. I'm grateful to have the ability to run and be active.   

Some people ask me how I just go out and run and push myself to run longer and harder to my absolute limits. With it resulting in having to sit in an ice bath or wrap ice packs around my knees. But I love it! I love the wind in my face, I love the feeling I get when I push myself just a little bit further. 

Ya, there are times that it hurts and times when I just want to sit down and lay on the cement or just face plant right in to the front of the treadmill. But I keep going and let me tell ya, that moment you push yourself just a little bit longer, is the moment you get a little bit stronger and faster and better.

 I'm grateful for my life. I'm grateful for my ability to run! 

Kids, Kids, Kids

   I have been Nannying little munchkins all week, and I have always wanted a big family. I find myself saying; "I'm glad they only come out one at a time, hopefully." I seriously love my job! I love kids and I feel like I can understand mom's now when they are so beyond happy when their child finishes his/her food. I'm that same way now, Boy oh boy. I tend to come home to my poor roommate and tell her how Zak finished his macaroni and how Emma changed her clothes all by her self. etc.. I get the same look I used to give my friends who are moms... haha classic.

  Anyway I'm working a lot more this week, because my aunt is in haiti with Ordinary Hero. Probably already talked about that amazing service group in previous posts. This week has been pretty crazy, but believe me I love it! I love Being busy and on the go and having things planned.

  Now almost every time about 2/3 days before my aunt gets back. All of the kids get really momma sick and ornery. So today was pretty interesting with the 4 younger ones... I guess It's true, kids can drive ya nuts sometimes until they do something absolutely adorable. Like tonight tucking in cute Zak. I read him a book, scratched his back, kissed him goodnight, and said "I love you." To make everything worth it.. He said "I love you Megan" in his cute preschool voice. It really is the small things that end up being the big things. His sweet "I love you Megan" made my whole day perfect.

It's been too long...

It's been to long since I have written in my blog. I feel pretty guilty, I have missed this old thing. To much has happened for me to post about, so let's just get on with life and with my post. I just traveled from salt lake today from my sister in-laws baby shower. I am so excited for my first nephew, Baby Hudson. He is going to be so spoiled and loved. Gotta love em boys!

I had to drive my aunts big escalade back, since she was traveling to haiti with the group Ordinary Hero, to go serve and help villages. Okay when you are used to driving a 4 door sedan and suddenly drive a beast, you feel like every time you pass a car your going to crush it.. Now if you know me, you'll know that I would be pretty hilarius to watch driving my semi's with the beast.

Take a moment; close your eyes, sit back and imagine me driving at 9 am with my hands in full primanitis mode...(If you don't know what that is, I'm sorry) now imagine me driving by a semi, going eeepp but in a quite high pitched nervous tone, with my body very stiff. Then when I finally pass those monsters on a two lane high way, I relax.. Awhh. Although it did make me feel pretty powerful and awesome. It still was quite the interesting drive until I got out of the construction area.. (didn't realize you probably need to keep your eyes open to read the post.) My goal while I was on my drive home, was to stop in at a random church to go to sacrament meeting... Welp, I stopped in provo, forgot about daylight savings time and was an hour early.. So I stopped in cedar city at 1 on the dot, and there were no meetings going... Have I missed something.. Any way, hope the big man gives me props and blessings for at least trying. On top of that, I figured I would go to the fireside. They always start at 7pm unless other wise specified. So, I go and it started at 6pm.. E for effort today. Ramballing over.. I have been thinking a lot lately about my life and where I am at and what changes have been made and what changes are going to happen. A lot of deep thought. I guess a 3 hour drive will do that to ya. I am completely happy in my life! Honestly, I have never been in such a good place in my life. Yes, my life is not perfect but it is absolutely wonderful! It's interesting all my friends are getting married or having kids, and people keep asking how I am and if I am dating anyone serious or the best one, "don't worry you will find your guy" I wish I could just shake them and say "I'm So Happy with my life and am not sad or mad that I don't have my man, I'm beyond happy for my friends!" :) I'm not saying that I am bitter about marriage or don't want to get married. It's something that I for sure want and desire, but I want it at the right time. I'm not just going to get married to be the social norm of Utah.. haha But seriously.

I'm not one of those girls going to school to find my man. I'm actually going to school to get an education. Because I want one, and if my sweetheart comes along tomorrow in the grocery store of course I will be more than happy. It's for sure one of my greatest desires, I want to be a mom and a wife. I do. But I'm not one of those people that waits for events to define my happiness. Life is constantly changing, and we get to pick our attitude when trials are thrown at us.

When something begins, you generally have no idea how it’s going to end. The house you’re going to sell becomes your home, the roommates you were forced to take in become your family and the date that you were determined not to go on, becomes the love of your life. We spend our whole lives worrying about the future, planning for the future, trying to predict the future, as if figuring it out will somehow cushion the blow. But the future is always changing. The future is the home of our deepest fears and wildest hopes. But one thing is certain when it finally reveals itself. The future is never the way we imagined it. Change is constant. How we experience change, That's up to us. It can feel like death or it can feel like a second chance at life. If we open our fingers, loosen our grips, and go with it... It can feel like pure adrenaline. Like at any moment we can have another chance at life.... Like at any moment, we can start all over again. I have plans for my future, whether It's for this weekend or 50 years from now when my cute old and wrinkly husband and I are all retired (hopefully) and we just spoil our grandkids and enjoy driving jazzy's with mickey mouse hats on in Disneyland with them, but hopefully we wont need jazzys until age 97, I plan on being the oldest person running races. ;) What ever my future holds, it holds.. But I'm not going to wait for tragedies and try to cushion the blows of it, I'm going to live everyday like it is my last and with those I love. At the end of the day that truly is what is most important.

P.S. For 21 days of November- What I'm grateful for. I'm grateful for The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. It is the most important thing to me in my life. I will shout it to the roof tops. I am who I am today because of this amazing gospel. I have a true testimony of it and will never deny that. I love talking about it and I love hearing others gratitude for it and their knowledge if it. This gospel doesn't make things easy in life, it makes everything absolutely possible. I'm not ashamed to be Mormon.